Escaping the Past

My prior incarnation, D, tended to be pretty argumentative. This was at its worse with people who were close to me. My therapist feels I was keeping them at a distance, and honestly, that might be a good explanation. I’d add that my interactions with my father growing up pushed me to defend my positions…… Continue reading Escaping the Past

Christmas and Hair?

I was sitting in a friend’s living room yesterday. She and her daughter welcomed me into their beautiful apartment having saved me from spending Christmas alone. Even though I’m Jewish, Christmas has been important in my life for more than thirty years. For a variety of not very mysterious reasons I’m not welcome with my…… Continue reading Christmas and Hair?

Six and a half weeks

It hasn’t been long since surgery, but six and going on seven weeks have seen huge changes. Healing of course, the swelling going down, sensation returning at a slow pace, the quelling of over sensitivity. At this point the only pain I feel is working the current largest dilator into place. Perhaps I need to…… Continue reading Six and a half weeks


Not a happy title, but depression is not the same as sadness. I know from trying to explain it that like the sighted person explaining the color blue to a blind friend, depression is hard to fathom if you haven’t experienced it. Nor is depression just one specific mental issue as the reasons and triggers…… Continue reading Depression