My prior incarnation, D, tended to be pretty argumentative. This was at its worse with people who were close to me. My therapist feels I was keeping them at a distance, and honestly, that might be a good explanation. I’d add that my interactions with my father growing up pushed me to defend my positions…… Continue reading Escaping the Past
I was sitting in a friend’s living room yesterday. She and her daughter welcomed me into their beautiful apartment having saved me from spending Christmas alone. Even though I’m Jewish, Christmas has been important in my life for more than thirty years. For a variety of not very mysterious reasons I’m not welcome with my…… Continue reading Christmas and Hair?
The solstice spells a dream of peace Dark cold nights; all cares cease Time the druids saw rebirth Time to start the pagan mirth Warm the halls with holly boughs Packed away all cares and woes Bright the log upon the hearth Kindled then all smiles and mirth Sing your songs and raise a glass…… Continue reading Darkest Night
It hasn’t been long since surgery, but six and going on seven weeks have seen huge changes. Healing of course, the swelling going down, sensation returning at a slow pace, the quelling of over sensitivity. At this point the only pain I feel is working the current largest dilator into place. Perhaps I need to…… Continue reading Six and a half weeks
When I was around eleven, my parents, probably my dad, enrolled me in a Karate school. It was Okinawan style if I remember right. I had been getting beaten up from time to time in middle school, I don’t think there had been a good reason other than my being a fairly perfect victim. Then…… Continue reading Growing up
Along the moonlit shore I walk Tide and flotsam coat the sand Looking back at what I had Walking hand in hand Once we rolled in midnight joy Heaven blessed us with a girl To raise mid love and laughter Grown into a pearl Yet now we walk on separate paths Quiet now defines our…… Continue reading Love Lost
Not a happy title, but depression is not the same as sadness. I know from trying to explain it that like the sighted person explaining the color blue to a blind friend, depression is hard to fathom if you haven’t experienced it. Nor is depression just one specific mental issue as the reasons and triggers…… Continue reading Depression