Stenosis

A word one doesn’t want to hear about their vagina, whether spoken in their head or by a doctor. Stenosis is the narrowing of a structure in the body but in this case I’m referring to my lady parts. The theory is very simple. They create a vagina out of penile and scrotal skin and……

Failure

I kept hoping—and hoping that my vagina would turn a corner and start expanding. I’ve been dilating even now, five years after my surgery on a daily basis. All in the hope to get it large enough to accommodate those things one should accommodate. I measured the depth this morning. Not even up to the……

A Scary Moment

People used to tell me how brave I was for transitioning. I’d poo poo that but there was some truth to it, especially viewing it in retrospect. Transitioning is not for the faint of heart – think carefully if you are contemplating it. One of the most scary moments of my life was the morning……

Straight

It seems so prosaic, and ironic. First I thought I was perhaps bi, but with little actual evidence but having a couple of sexual encounters with women post transition. It started in 2012. We were watching the Victoria’s secret show of pretty underwear. I suddenly realized I didn’t care about the scantily clad models. At……

Reflections on four years full time

I’d like to starts with the hard stuff so I leave you with some more positive messages. As these years have gone by it has become more and more apparent how deep my losses have been. Not everyone’s go this deep and some go deeper. I’ve seen outright rejection, usually in a non-confrontational way. I’ve……

Revision surgery +~3 weeks

Things are going fine as long as I don’t push too much. Over enthusiasm is not a good idea, not disastrous, but not the best course of action. Dilation is fine with the 1.25″ dilator going in fine and the 1.375″ going most of the way or possibly all the way in. I won’t  go……

Revision Surgery Update 10/13

Not a great deal to say. I went to see the surgeon about a week ago. Everything way healing normally. I’ve passed that early stage of aches and pains, and I can now go back to things like ibuprofen or naproxen for my odd attacks of joint pain. I had some minor feedback from the……

SRS – Revision – October 2017

I originally talked with my surgeon about having developed a tight spot around eighteen  months ago. At the time his advice was to step up on dilation and to use my thumb to put pressure on the scar “ring” that had formed. Unfortunately, nothing I did seemed to make any difference. This was complicated by……

Anti Drama

It’s Sunday evening and I’ve had the last solid food before surgery. Tomorrow is about having a liquid diet interspersed with powerful antibiotics meant to kill every microbe in my gut and other powerful bactericides to kill those on my body. All of which ends with a power, well, I’ll leave the last to your……

SRS update @20 months

I’m just a little shy of two years since I had reassignment surgery. While I’m sure that SRS is not for every trans person, it surely has made some profound differences for me. I feel as genuine as one can feel given the circumstances. As I’m sure you understand, it is not possible at this……