Finding Happiness in Transition

In the world I’ve peered into of trans women there are different kinds of people with different kinds of goals. Remember that most all of these people have an identity of female or female”ish” for their gender with a male body to start with. Some are not to be content with anything short of not……

Surprises

In just a couple of weeks I will have been full time for two full years, and these are some reflections on some of the things that have been different from what I might have expected. We all enter into this with ideas, but how does reality wear them down? Men I speak not of……

In Zion

She sat by the stream And played the Lyre, Dreaming of Zion of Jerusalem Golden on a hill Shining, calling to all Come and live in my light But she was in shadow In twilight as the music softly told a story low in the dark she lay alone and the angels showed her a……

How Many Sticks?

There’s that old saying about the stick that broke the camel’s back. I’m feeling like that these days. The past six years have been exceptionally difficult ones. I’ll review, quite briefly: 2010: My father was dying all that year and finally fell and broke his hip, or broke his hip and fell. We gave him……

Earthquake

Slowly It started In the basement Of a tall building At first Just the smallest Cracks appeared In the concrete pillars Then As seconds passed The rumblings grew And the ground shifted Steel Bent like rubber Glass Shattered and fell on the street below In the top Of that building Lay a machine Once pristine……

Speeding

I was approaching the checkout for the cafeteria at work, maybe five feet away when a young man easily thirty years my junior runs in to get ahead, and to add insult to injury a man more my age just walks quickly to do the same. The first thought in my mind was an  ……

Transformation

I was on the phone with my girlfriend C this morning, sympathizing over some pain she’s having. Aside from trying to get her to take it even easier it wasn’t about fixing the problem, it was about comforting my friend. So I’m thinking, wow, I’m not the person I was. When I was D, I……

New Waters

Some of us who travel this path keep the sexual orientation we had and some don’t. Some of our friends are concerned with labels and make it really uncomfortable, at least it is for me. I used to be oriented toward women and I had a penis and felt I was a man, so the……

Hormone Therapy

This is probably one of the least well understood topics by trans women I’ve seen, including me at the beginning. What we think is that taking female hormones is going to give us a feminine figure and boobs and that’s the reason to take them. The truth is that hormones, unless you’re an adolescent who’s……

Deciding to Transition

In addition to my last post, there are other reasons not to transition. Transition brings a host of psychological changes and skill challenges that really are difficult. I said the rules are different, and they are. That can chafe if you don’t have the right attitude. You talk using somewhat different vocabulary, and you’re surrounded……